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Pulling
up the collar of his heavy black coat against
the biting December wind, Seamus McConville
trudged down Royal Avenue, thronged with Christmas
shoppers. Reaching the City Hall he turned towards
the markets, then opened the door of his small
terraced house on the corner of Bridge Street.
He took off his coat and sank wearily into the
chair beside the fire. A sad look crossed his
pale, pinched face as he thought of his wife
Maura who died ten years ago. He gazed at the
cards on the mantelpiece. By now he was used
to spending Christmas alone.
Yet it still pained him to think there was nothing
to look forward to, except going down to Castle
Court shopping centre to see the bright, happy
smiles on the children's faces when they met
Santa Claus. Rising slowly to his feet he crossed
into the tiny kitchen. He sliced some bread,
lit the gas stove and fried some sausages, an
egg and a couple of rashers. After he'd eaten
he settled down with his newspaper to spend
another evening alone in front of the fire.
Just then he heard a knock on the door. Opening
it, he smiled when he saw the plump, round figure
of Mrs. Marley who lived across the street.
Without waiting to be asked in, she bustled
into the kitchen.
'I just called in after Mass to see how you
were,' she said, dumping a large paper bag on
the table. 'There's a couple of sodas, a barmbrack
and a nice wee Christmas cake I baked specially
for you. Touched by her kindness, his eyes brightened.
He knew she was a busybody, but her heart was
in the right place. He opened his mouth to thank
her, but she prattled on, 'Now you're sure you
won't come over to our house for Christmas?
There's only Sammy and me. You'll be more than
welcome.' Seamus shook his head. 'Thanks - but
no.'
She rubbed her hands briskly together, drawing
in her breath sharply. 'It's a bit nippy in
here, isn't it?' Her small bright grey eyes
swept quickly around the room, before coming
to rest on the meagre fire smoking in the grate.
'I was just thinking...' She paused for effect,
drawing her thick green Aran cardigan more tightly
around her shoulders. 'Wouldn't you be better
off in one of those new pensioner's bungalows
off the Springfield Road, instead of stuck here
in this old house on your own?'
He made no reply. Putting her head to one side,
she pursed her lips. 'My sister moved into one
last year,' she continued. 'Says they're as
warm as toast with the central heating and double
glazing.' 'I'm all right here,' he replied in
a calm, steady voice.
She sighed and shook her head. 'All right, have
it your own way. But if you change your mind,
you know where we are.'
When she'd gone he drew the curtains and switched
on the light. As he set the Christmas cake in
the cupboard his heart ached as he thought about
the Christmases he'd loved when Maura was alive
and their son Barry was a lively eight-year-old.
Every December they went to Royal Avenue to
do their Christmas shopping, then on to the
Grand Opera House to see the pantomime.
He sighed and lit his pipe. He could never
understand why Barry left Ireland when there
was a secure job for him in the family drapery
business in Belfast. But whenever he spoke to
Barry about taking over the shop when he retired,
Barry, seemed more determined to go. 'Things
are different now, Dad,' Barry said. 'Nobody
stays in the same job all their lives. I don't
want to spend my days slaving behind a shop
counter like you and Mam.' His voice was suddenly
hard and cold. 'There's more to life than that'!
'But it's not only for me,' Seamus replied.
'Your Mam would've wanted it too.' For a long
time Barry was silent. 'Mam's dead,' he said
in a dull, flat voice. 'But I know what you're
up to. You're trying to make me feel guilty.
Because you're on your own now, you think I
should stay here with you.' Seamus felt a sudden
rush of anger. 'Then go if you want to!' he
shouted. 'I won't stop you! Many's the one would
jump at the chance of inheriting a good business:
But then that always was your problem - too
independent, too selfish!' Walking round the
table, Barry faced him. 'No, I'm not. Don't
you see, I just want a life of my own. I don't
want everything handed to me!' Seamus clenched
his fists, his face white with anger. Striding
into the hall, he slammed the door behind him.
When Barry left Belfast for America Seamus
received some letters with a New York address.
He replied in a rather stiff formal way, until
one arrived in which Barry said he was getting
married. Then the letters stopped, but be usually
sent a card at Christmas to say how he was.
Setting
down his pipe Seamus stared into the fire. Now
he felt completely alone, as if he'd never had
a wife and son. The future held nothing for
him.
The next day he caught the bus to the city
centre. He went to Woolworths, had a cup of
tea, then bought some tinsel, a small Christmas
tree and a box of peppermints for Mrs. Marley.
When he arrived home he set the Christmas tree
in the window. He was decorating it with lights
when he beard a knock on the door. Opening it,
the postman handed him a large parcel. 'Merry
Christmas,' he said cheerfully.' And the same
to you,' Seamus replied.
He set the parcel on the table and untied the
string. 'Now who would've sent these?' he murmured
when he saw a red checked shirt, a tin of biscuits,
a pipe and a pouch filled with tobacco. Then
he spotted two envelopes. Opening one, he was
surprised to find a photograph of Barry, his
arm around a smiling, pretty girl with long
brown hair, cradling a baby in her arms.
With trembling fingers he opened the other
envelope and pulled out a Christmas card. 'Looking
forward to seeing you' was written inside. 'And
if you like it in America, then maybe you'll
come and live with us. Love from Barry, Mary
and baby Michael'.
Turning the card over, he gasped when he saw
the plane ticket sellotaped on the back. Tears
of happiness flooded his eyes as he slowly crossed
towards the Christmas tree and switched on the
lights. For a long time he stood at the window,
gazing up at the stars twinkling in the dark
December sky. Then a smile lit up his face.
He could hardly wait to tell Mrs. Marley his
good news. Imagine... Christmas in America.
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