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Again, I dream of times past and the snows
of yesteryear - and afternoons white with Christmas
as I walk into the town, hand in hand with my
little sister Mary. We are warmly wrapped in
winter coats and berets, wellies, long grey
socks above the knees, scarves like highwaymen's
masks. Two showgirls off to a Christmas Eve
party at my best friend's house.
At this end of the town there's a statue of
the Blessed Virgin in a tiny black railinged
square. We pause and pray as the snow falls
lightly on the Virgin's upraised head and then
amble onwards, taking in the Christmas lights,
the sky above dark and threatening, the clouds
bulging with cold snow.
We tramp in someone else's snowy footsteps past
the butcher, the baker, the newsagents and the
betting shop. Bing Crosby singing 'White Christmas'
heard from an upstairs window. Past the Star
Cinema, offering a De Mille epic with posters
proclaiming 'stupendous, inspiring entertainment
in glorious technicolor' and Vista Vision too.
Mary and I trudge on and then halt excitedly
at a shop, while our amazed eyes follow the
tiny on-and-off bulbs flying around the window
at a dizzying speed. I blink and point to tufts
of cotton snow and a laughing Santa tucked beside
a sign for Player's Please, with the sailor
man who looks a bit like Santa himself. In the
distance Bing is now tinnily singing Adeste
Fideles, which sounds nice and Christmassy,
whatever it means.
It takes an age to walk the High Street in
the snow. Beyond that, a country road winds
mysteriously towards distant seaside towns,
muffled in winter and further still the wild
Atlantic blows cold from distant America, where
so many cousins are labouring now, far from
this Christmas at home.
Close to my Loreto school, the walled Parish
Church's stained glass is blazing light onto
the town cemetery, where Mary will eventually
rest. A bell is calling the living and the dead
to prayer. Tomorrow we'll assemble for Mass
under vaulted aisles of Galway Gothic, and sit
near the altar, people standing for late arrivals,
clattering cold feet, planting myself on wood
that is cold under my new winter coat.
Kneeling and praying, head in hands, for Mamma;
Daddy and Mary; for my relatives and friends
at home and far away. Then Father O'Toole marching
to the altar in green and gold, the chalice
in his ancient hands, genuflecting, stepping
upwards, getting ready.
'Introibo ad altare Deo', the old priest's holy
words soaring heavenwards, echoing, absorbed
in the darkness above, sucked in by the breath
of God. Mary and I pray together, our words
mingling. The prayers of children soar over
the church, above my town and up beyond bright
Orion. They fall, tumbling into the lap of God
and He will accept them, I hope; as so many
Christmas gifts.
It snows again, falling lightly, ephemeral
as memory while I walk through that landscape
of my distantly remembered past.
At the end of the High Street, the Celtic cross
is thickly coated with snow. When I stare upwards,
wondering where bumblebees go in winter, snowflakes
fall cold and wet into my open mouth. In summer
the Celtic cross swarms with bees and the man
from the Council has to come regularly to take
them away into the countryside where they belong.
Maybe they were wasps? I never knew the difference.
The townspeople claimed when Saint Brigid stopped
on her way to the Aran Islands aeons ago, she
was hungry and the bees made honey for her.
Right there on that very spot where the Celtic
cross is now. It was a local miracle for sure.
My daddy believed every town should have one.
We laugh the afternoon away in my best friend's
house. All my school pals are there - Grace
Brennan, Sarah Foley, Fidelma Quinlan, Patricia
Tierney and Melanie Ferguson. All of them old
now, or gone to their reward. We laugh the hours
away, oblivious to time passing, ignorant of
our uncertain futures waiting up ahead.
Holly and ivy, fairy lights and a huge log
fire. Food and fun on Christmas Eve. Who could
ask for anything more? And when the party ends,
my sister and I trundle home and sleep an hour
while mamma sits in the kitchen, her mouth open,
snores slithering from her blurred lips, the
meal she's laboured over all afternoon bubbling
on the stove.
Daddy finishes work early and after big tea,
he slips away to visit friends and have a drink.
Mamma's in the kitchen talking to the District
Nurse, just passing and popped in to say hello.
Sipping sherry and talking of the past while
Mary and I sit warmly by the fire telling ghost
stories.
Logs crackling, cards on the mantle, our Christmas
tree in a corner, blinking lights, the windows
reflecting the room's cosy brightness. Mary's
falling fingers impersonate the snow, she pouts
her lips and makes the sound of the wind - Wheeeew
Woooooo - creepy and eerie the way wind should
be in a Christmas Eve tale.
And later, after saying my bedside prayers,
I lie in bed with the warmth growing around
me, busily thinking about Santa Claus on his
way from the North Pole. Sleighbells, reindeers,
sacks of presents for me, for Mary - for everybody.
I wonder if he stops in Dublin first? Everybody
seems to know. I will eventually. Stop and never
return. 'Goodnight,' my sister calls dreamily
from the bed nearby. 'Goodnight and Happy Christmas,'
I say, settling snugly under the blankets, my
excitement finally surrendering to sleep. I
fall into a dream, while all around, the towns
and villages of Galway sleep and the great silence
of Christmas Eve descends, like a benediction
over the dreaming landscape.
While I dream of the past and the snows of
yesteryear, and afternoons white with Christmas,
as I walk into town, hand in hand with my little
sister, Mary.
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